Sooo, I'm not very good at keeping the old blog updated then? If there's anything the past few months have taught me then it would be that! Ha! It's now April and I haven't posted since January - I will really try to improve my posting frequency...
Thanks for all your lovely comments on my previous (now ancient) post - lots has happened since then but not much to make me change my mind on that subject (yet).
Today I had a really interesting discussion with some friends about my personality. Those of you who know me will understand this more than those of you who don't. I was trying to suss myself out as a few of my close friends have described me as quite an unusual chap. I really like this description although I couldn't say why!? I hope it is a 'positive unusual' rather than the opposite. With that in mind I reflected on my life as a Christian
I try to live a life as a Christian, but within that I am not prepared to put on a big show for my non-Christian friends pretending I am something I am not. Paul (as in the bible - important guy - lots of new testament - used to be Saul? You got him) speaks about pressing on towards the goal and running the race. It's always this 'pushing forward' imagery - as if he realises that he will never quite be there but will always push as close as he can towards Jesus. His hope is based in constantly aiming to be a better man tomorrow than he is today.
My prayer is that whilst I am always pushing onwards towards worshipping God from a deeper place within me, loving my neighbour more truely and walking closer to Jesus that I will always stay true to who I am currently. That I will continue to show my weaknesses as well as my strengths - that I will continue to communicate my struggles as well as my victories. The last thing I want is for people, Christian or otherwise, to see me acting out an unattainable life, putting on the 'performance of my career' everyday and never quite facing up to who I am once I come off stage.
Lots of tired thoughts there - what do you think?
